Dying 🪦🔴

They say when there’s no light, look within,
Ah!
Only a person living in dark know the depth of horrifying pain,
You know it’s time when you have tried everything,
As if it’s God’s way to prepare you for death

But death and rebirth was never hard for me in the first place,
It’s living, it’s suffering, it’s seeing the blood in front of your eyes, every day,
some days more closer and some days more severe
You get up, you fall, you get up again, you fall vanity,
Oh lord! this time with more height and agony,
I have felt bloody eyes, heart sinking, with each breath I take
From Pulse drop to shivering feet, there’s no stopping from this heartbreak

Every inch of the body feel this pain and seclusion
I want belonging, affection, understanding, and inclusion
But who to ask for, where to look for, everything is dark and gloomy,
Never thought I would write something reflecting no light through me

I am seeing it coming, with every breath, its near, with every shed tear it dwindles,
I’ma get-up and start breathing, one more way to pay gratitude to God.
I’m begging for forgiveness, on my deathbed till my last breath unfolds!